I am one who is carefully making my way to freedom. I am one who knows to watch for the pitfalls on my journey to wellness. Who is carrying a burden that puts me off balance at times.
I continue to heal from my surgery. Saw the doctor yesterday since I was still bleeding and the nurse thought I should. It appears that what is going on is normal, but the day of complete rest between the call and seeing the doctor probably helped the most. Sometimes we need a little scare to get us to pay attention.
I must continue to walk the path to wellness and look for ways for that to happen. I got two new cookbooks for Christmas. Now to be well enough to start cooking. I am really grateful that my son is here from Tampa. He has made my life easier since the surgery and continues to remind me to take it easy. I really wished he lived closer!
I am one who is aware of the protection of the ancestors. I am one who lives with their knowledge and guidance. I am one who knows that I am being cared for and supported by those who surround me, living and dead.Today I will have surgery to repair a rectocele. Pretty common surgery, but not a lot of fun for recovery. I was told to expect that I won't want to sit for any length of time for 1-2 weeks. So I am looking for the support of family and friends and those who have gone before me. I ask for guidance for the surgeon, Melody Denson, and all the staff of Seton Medical Center.It is fitting that the beginning of this problem, the birth of my first child, should finish at the same medical facility. It reminds me of the circle of life. Learning from those who go before, listening and supporting with compassion to all those around us.
May I keep an open heart and a positive attitude even if there is a lot of pain and discomfort. I look forward to the week of Christmas with my family. No matter how I feel, I am so grateful they are there for me.
I am one who craves adventure. I am one who is willing to take risks. I am one who loves to try different things.
As I head off on vacation I am looking forward to seeing some different things and having new experiences. Not up for kayaking or rock climbing! But am looking forward to state parks, pertroglyphs, wineries, a play and some sporting events.
I am one who misses the care and concern of a parent. I am one who tries to be nurturing but not overbearing to my young.I am still recovering from my day of grief yesterday. It is actually hard to function in a normal fashion. This image reminds me that I can get the nurturing I need from people other than my parents.
I am one who holds the knowledge of the world in my hand. Who is worried for the earth and what we humans are doing to our mother. I am one who is aware that the neighborhood I live in is the world. I am one who wishes everyone in the world would just do the right thing and live in peace.
This is a hard day for me. The first Veteran's Day without my dad. It kind of took me by surprise, the fact that I can't stop crying. I don't think I have let myself grieve for him and all that he represents to me. I want to make a difference in the world, like he did.
I am one who likes to orchestrate things. I am one who loves it when I can facilitate harmonious things. I am one who is much more comfortable when I am in charge.This card was made for me by a friend. As the adult child of an alcoholic I spend a lot of my time making things happen a certain way, so there won't be missteps along the way. Sometimes that doesn't allow for the process of learning for those around me. I am trying very hard to let go, but I keep waiting for that slap when things don't go right.
I am one who is blooming into the person I want to be. I am one who is looking to open her root chakra.I am learning to take care of myself. Knowing when to say no and limit my activities so I can have the energy to do the things I want and need to do. Resting when I am tired is important. I am not sleeping well and need to make sure I get my naps in when possible.
