Which Direction?

I am one who is looking in every direction for guidance. Who is willing to stretch myself to find my way on the path.

I am trying to find the time to work on my path, it seem to be overwhelmed by things to accomplish. But not searching out my path seems to make it harder to accomplish things, so I really need to make time daily for study and meditation.

Undecided

I am one who is undecided as to what to chew on next. Who is looking at all the goodies and licking my chops while I decide. Who likes to think that the perfect thing is out there but am unsure how to find it.

Life has thrown us another curve ball. The job I thought I would get, I didn't. Oh, well I guess it wasn't the right job. Now to decide which way to go. Continue eating the same old stuff, look for new exotic stuff or cruise on over to something completely different! 

I really need this time to organize myself and my house. I have also decided to spend a little more time in Wisconsin after by brother's wedding. Connect with some old friends and support my sister a bit after her hand surgery. Hopefully I will come across the right thing to do.

My Own Spiritual Path

I am one who is on her own spiritual path. Who is not intimidated by those who are on a different path. Who is comfortable surrounded by those not on the same path.

This path is my own, I am still exploring it. Even though most of the jobs I am applying for are in churches on a different path, my openness to them following their path makes it OK.

This feels more comfortable than working in an environment where the path is not the focus.

Balance

I am one who is looking for balance. Who is aware that energy is sometime not where you need it to be. I am one who realizes that today's balance may not last.

I am struggling to find the balance between hope and despair. Will they call and tell me I have the job or will it go to one of the other 2 candidates. I would enjoy this job, have actually been employed there in the past. Hope that gives me an edge.

Protection

I am one who protects myself from the night. I am who is standing on the edge of the land and sea. Who is aware that many have gone before me and I need to pay attention to what they have to say before they are gone.

I do feel right now that I am in protection mode. I just don't know if it is a good thing or just isolationism. Rarely do I want to leave my home unless I have to and I don't want to see but a few people. Part of it is not feeling well, but I am not sure that is all of it.

It appears that life has decided to come down heavily on me. We will spend next weekend with hubby's family celebrating his dad's 90th. We know this is the last time we will see him alive as he has lung cancer. All the elders in my family are going now. It is getting hard to deal with those losses.

Out of Focus

I am one who is focused on the small bits. Who is hanging with my friends enjoying life.

As this is the 3rd time I have drawn this card in 2 weeks. I think it must have something to say to me that I just don't get. I have been looking at it as a focus card. Focusing on the details and not seeing the big picture or focusing on renewal. I will have to think about what this cared really has to say. I am sure it will come up until I get the message it wants me to have!

The Sound of Water

I am one who loves the sound of water. I am one who's soul is nourished when she is near water. Who dreams of living where she can hear the water always.

I am in a fragile spot today and I don't know why. But I am close to tears for no apparent reason and just feel like I want to spend the day alone and not have to deal with people. I am going to say it is the antibiotics and leave it at that. I take the last one this morning, so by tomorrow I will feel better.

I have a fountain given to me by my son and his girlfriend. I think I need to set it up today to have the peaceful sound of water to soothe me.