Inner Light

I am one who is blooming out of the darkness. I am one who is working from an inner light.

Laid Back

I am one who can rest when I need to. I am one who can ignore the stresses of the day to relax. I am one who is laid back and happy.

Shine!

I am one who is using the heat of the earth to burn away the unneeded things in my life. I am one who is using the pressure of life to become a diamond. I am one who shines!

Watching

I am one who is watching. I am one who is waiting. I am one who is patient.

Survival

I am one who is looking for ways to survive. I am one who is needy and sees the need in others.

Change the World

We left on Friday to meet our son & his wife for a weekend of camping. As we left, I said, "Darn, I wanted to bring my SoulCollage cards!" My husband of almost 29 years responded with, "You can just touch my nose and I will describe a card for you to use for your reading. A pearl in a field of daisies with a man looking quizzically on." I laughed so hard! It was a great start to the weekend!

I am one who is a citizen of the world. I am one who is fighting poverty. I am one who knows that big money rules the world and votes to change that.

Ignore the Turmoil

I am one who is relaxing in the midst of turmoil. I am one who must protect my relaxation time. I am one who enjoys life.

Silly Mistakes

I am one who makes silly mistakes. I am one who is not alone. I am one who knows that most mistakes can be corrected or erased.

Little did I know that I would make a serious silly mistake. I was careless with scissors and sniped a chunk off of my left index finger!

Growing

I am one who is searching. I am one who is cheerful. I am one who is reborn. I am one who feels like I am growing in unexpected ways.

Stand up for your beliefs

I am one who is happy. I am one who stands out in the universe. I am one who worships in my own way. I am one who stands up for what I believe but is also aware that others have the same right.

Stuck in Time

I am one who never has enough time to accomplish what I want to. I am one who feels stuck in time.

November 23, 2007 - Smiling Face

I am one who is feeling grounded. I am one who is smiling although seemingly mired in things beyond my control.

November 22, 2007 - Desert Sunset

I am one who is looking to nature to improve my health. I am one who is at home in the desert. I am one who is nearing the sunset of life.

November 20, 2007 - Bathing in Nature

I am one who is cleansing my body of toxins. I am one who is bathing in nature. I am one who is blooming while floating in a sea of tranquility.

November 19, 2007 - Nurturing

I am one who nurtures. I am one who is pruning away the parts that are old and unneeded. I am one who flits from task to task.

November 18, 2007-Grounded in the desert

I am catching up from my trip to Silver City, NM and Tucson,AZ

I am one who is grounded in the desert. I am one who is holding ancient wisdoms. I am one who respects others spiritual paths.

11/17/07-Gila National Forest

I spent the earlier part of this day visiting the Gila Cliff Dwellings in NM. It was an amazing spiritual experience! Raven accompanied me up to the Cliff Dwellings. He made sure I saw him!

When I entered the dwelling that is thought to be the spiritual center of the village I just sat and meditated. As I sat the tears ran down my face, no thoughts I can remember, just tears. And then I heard someone enter the dwelling and thought I should acknowledge him/her so they would feel at ease about interrupting my meditation. There was no one there! But I felt great peace at that moment.

We then went down to a campground that had petroglyphs on the wall. This was another peaceful, spiritually filled place.

I sat on a rock near the tree line and pulled some cards. The question I asked was: What does Raven have to say to me?

Card #1

I am one who is grounded in the past. Standing strong against the winds of time. Raven: Remember your past-learn from it and grow-listen to the ancients.

Card #2

I am one who feels crowded. I am one who wants to be different from everyone else. Raven: go along with the crowd, but don’t do all they do-make your own mark.

Card #3

I am one who is ancient. I am one who is looked over by those who went before me. Raven: Listen to the ancients. Their wisdom is your wisdom.

Wisdom:

Tune yourself to nature. Listen to the knowledge of those who have gone before. This is the season of the crone-sunset. It will be a long sunset.

Showers of Riches

I am one who is not looking for showers of riches. I am one who is concerned about money.

This card has me thinking of what I already have as riches. But it also concerns me about the whole money thing. I have been focusing on my health and not income generation. Is my focus wrong? I will have to ponder that.

Blooming

I am one who is blooming. I am one who is growing. I am one who is open to new things.

I really need to get back to basics. Clear out clutter and remove unnecessary things from my life. We are clearing out the pantry this weekend of all the foods we will no longer eat. If only it was that easy to clear out the other stuff in my life.

Life's Treasures

I am one who is searching for the treasure. I am one who is spreading my warmth like sunshine. I am one who assumes all the treasure I need will come to me.

Today is the second day of a new lifestyle commitment. I am looking for the “treasure” in that. Today the treasure is a healthier life. Tomorrow the treasure could be something quite different!

Friends are the keys to life

I am one who is searching for the keys. I am one who depends on friends to help me find the keys to a healthier life.

I love my friends! They really are the key to unlock a healthier life. They support me and give me hope that I can feel well at some point.

Joy

I am one who is full of joy. I am one who stands out in a crowd. I am one who is illuminated by the universe. I am one who can praise God in my own way.

What a great card to start off my SoulCollage Escape weekend. I am joyful and ready to break myself away from the men in my life for a weekend with 17 women who will be card-making, searching their souls and having fun!

Cleansing

I am one who is washing away the toxins in my life. I am one who is immersing myself in cleansing waters.

This chapter in my life is all about healing and cleansing. I am encouraged to know that the SoulCollage process is there to support that, when I am feeling like I am accomplishing nothing.

Remember to Smile

I am one who smiles when covered in mud. I am one who is looking at the muddy parts of my life and still able to smile. I am one who is grounded.

This is the first time I have drawn this card. I made it more that a year ago. I am really trying to clear up the mud from my health and life. This reminds me to smile. Life is better than the alternative!

Mask

I am one who wears a mask. I am one who erupts with emotion. I am one who acknowledges the ancient soul within me. I am one who is silent, with no mouth to speak the truths buried deep within until they come spewing out.

Wow, I really need to listen to my inner self more often! I have been not looking deep, I guess, afraid what I might find. I have always known this about myself, but again, was not ready to look. I think that I am in for a bumpy ride since I expect I will be speaking up more about my feelings. I hope my family & friends understand.

Silly

I am one who is silly at times. I am one who knows that I can correct behavior that seems silly. I am one who looks to friends with similar silly behavior to help. I am one who will be silly my whole life and know that friends and a good eraser will get me through!

As I work towards my gluten free existence, I will enjoy the support of my friends and have some laughs along the way. Knowing that with work, I can erase years of poor diet.

Reborn

I am one who is immersing herself in new beginnings. I am one who is being reborn. I am one who sees the sunset in the distance, reminding me that I am part of the universe. I am one who feels protected when vulnerable.
I love when a card tells a completely different story than the last time I saw it. Today this card gives me hope that things will work out well if I immerse myself in the healing process. I am struggling to do that. I am really unfocused and unable to concentrate.

New Coat of Paint

I am one who is creative. I am one who is messy. I am one who is painting a new future.

I am trying new things. I need to remember that a lot of things can be fixed with a new coat of paint!

Feeling Poorly

I am one who is concerned about money. I am one who is feeling poorly. I am one who is feeling alone and weak.

I need to focus on my health and income generation/money saving. If not income generation, then at least try to save enough on purchases, groceries, eating out, etc, to offset the loss of income.

My health always seems to take a back burner to other issues. I really need to focus on that, but can’t seem to figure out a way to prioritize that.

Rootless

I am one who feels rootless, drifting, vibrant but unfocused.

I need to use the ability to drift to search for the focus I need to get my health on track.

Ancient & New

I am one who feels old. I am one who has the knowledge of the ancients. I am one learning to speak a new language, one my body understands.

As I move into removing gluten from my diet, I feel like everything I know is in another language. I have to learn new ways to nourish my body like I have been learning new ways to nourish my soul.

Pennies from Heaven

I am one who looks for blessings from heaven. I am one who dreams of riches. I am one who looks to heaven for my spiritual riches.

I need to keep my mind and eyes open for opportunities to replace the income lost by quitting the job at LOUU. I need to trust that an opportunity for income will appear and not worry about when and where that will happen.

Disguise

I am one who feels like she is being watched. I am one who feels judged. I am the one who hides behind appearances.

This card reminds me that I need to be me, not what people expect me to be. Appearances can be deceiving. We all wear protective masks, it is important to be true to my inner self and not the self I project to the world around me.

Keys to Life

I am one who feels alone. I am the one who feels chained. I am one who has the keys, but am not sure if they will work. I am the one looking outside for the keys.

I need to remember that the chains can be unlocked with the keys I already have. And the search outside is obscuring the real key to the problems.

Root Chakra

I am one who is beginning to blossom. I am one who is vibrant, alive, bursting forth. I am the one who looks outside myself for meaning.

I made this card when we were doing a Chakra card making night. Both cards this week have had red in them. Root Chakra. Interesting. I am still learning about Chakras. I just did a Chakra test on this site, http://www.eclecticenergies.com/chakras/chakratest.php, it showed that my root chakra was closed. All the other chakras are open-heart is too open. I guess I need to get to know myself better both in body & soul. Along with the research I need to do on my diet, etc I need to work on my chakras as well. Life is never dull!

October 1, 2007

Today I drew this card. I like to draw a card each day to see what it might have to say to me about my day.

This is what this card had to say to me: "I am one who is uncut, rough. I am one who is a blank canvas. I am one who finds beauty in desolation."

This is what the card made me feel: "Today I start anew. I have the time to find what is hidden in the ruby. It is a fresh start. I am not feeling well, but there is hope that I can make a difference in my health by looking at everything possible to bring out the beauty inside. That hidden, healthy, energetic part of me."

Audrey

My First SoulCollage Card

I can't thank Doris enough for bringing SoulCollage into my life.

My first card was a revelation about myself. As a child of an alcoholic, the stack of fabric symbolizes the need to make sure things went as planned so my mother would not be upset. The box without the bottom is my need to think outside the box to keep things running smoothly.

I know my kids hated my need to fix things before they were broken, but now as adults I think they understand. I finally understand as well and work hard at letting others fix their own problems. I don't need to do it for the whole community.

As today is my last day as Administrator at LOUU, I realize this is part of my journey to not be the "repairer" of unbroken things. If you see me trying to fix something not yet broken, remind me of the little girl living outside the box in a world of color!

Audrey