Friday, March 27, 2009

Rhythm of the Universe

I am one who loves color. I am one who loves to move to the rhythm of the Universe. I am one who is ready to dance the night away!

As I head off to my retreat, Celebrating Spring: The Maiden Returns, how appropriate is this card. I know the maiden's color is white, but please, I just don't believe in her soul white is her color! My maiden wants to come out and play. And play for me is color!

Thursday, March 26, 2009


I am one who is looking for balance. I am one who is aware of the energy that takes.

Right now life is a balancing act. Trying to accomplish daily goals with out letting that huge rock fall and crush me. It seems to be one thing after another and the storm is coming closer.

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Listen to the birds

I am one how is looking for peace and quiet. I am one one who is listening to the birds. I am one who is concerned we won't hear what they have to say.

This past weekend I spent a lot of time listening to the Franklin Gulls as they did their courtship rituals. It was really fun to watch them seem to chase each other away, when they really were trying to attract.
I could have spent hours (OK, more hours) just watching the plovers and sandpipers as they looked for food as the tide came in.

How like the birds we are at times! We seemingly push away those we want near us. Is it because we don't want them to know the real us but still need them near?

I really want to make the camping at the beach a yearly activity.

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

On Ice

I am one who feels like she has been put on ice. I am one who is wondering when the hibernation ends.

I apply for jobs daily and get no response. At some point something will open up, but I feel very out of step with the world right now.

Sunday, March 15, 2009

Chambers of my being

I Am One Who is looking into the chambers of my being. I Am One Who is open and vulnerable. I Am One Who is protected by those who surround me. I Am One Who is feeling isolated and alone.

Right now I am feeling very vulnerable. I am looking for support from my friends and family. The stress of my joblessness is affecting my health. I am not feeling well mentally or physically. Next weekend we will spend camping on the Gulf of Mexico. Hopefully I can be re-energized there.

Friday, March 13, 2009

Widen my focus

I am one who is slowly chasing a rebirth. I am one who is focused on the goal, not taking in the world around me.

I have been a bit myopic lately. I really need to widen my focus. It is not only about finding a job, but how I live my life.

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Beauty & Strength

I am one who is closely connected to my spouse. I am one who looks to my spouse for support and inspiration. I am one who is aware how delicate the balance between partners can be, but also how beautiful. I am one who knows that even when the "bloom is off the rose" there is beauty and strength in the relationship between my husband & myself.

We have just had our 30th Anniversary so I know our relationship is stable. My new joblessness will change the dynamic, but not alter the base of our relationship. As our life resettles into this new dynamic, I must keep in mind that there will be bumps in the road so to speak, and make sure we work through any problems that arise.

Tuesday, March 10, 2009


I am one who is pruning away the part of me that are restricting growth. I am on who is fliting from place to place looking for nourishment for my soul. I am one who seems to have no goal in mind except finding the nourishment I need to survive.

Today is my first official day without work. Last week I was with my family and yesterday I volunteered for the organization I worked for. I need to work hard at finding a pattern for my days. Not flit around doing this and that, but come up with a real plan for accomplishing the goals I have set for myself: find a job, clear the clutter in my house, make some home improvements, and find some peace with where I am.

Monday, March 9, 2009

Find Peace

I am one who watches others find their joy. I am one who is energized by water. I am one who is at peace in the elements. I am one who longs to float in peace. I am one who would love to fly on the wind. I am one who is warmed by the sun.

I need to take time to nurture those parts of me that require time in nature. I will continue to watch what brings others joy and find what calls me to peace.

Sunday, March 8, 2009

All the Time in the World

I am one who now has all the time in the world. I am one who is looking for the pieces that will fill in my time. I am one who is aware that time keeps moving and I have to be more productive with the time I have.

Now that I am unemployed, I need to make sure that the free time I have does not slip away unproductively. I will have to somehow structure my days to be productive. I am worried that I may start to feel useless and slip into melancholy. And that will be very unproductive.