Thursday, December 31, 2009

Ignore the Chaos

I am one who seems unaware of the chaos around me. I am one who is enjoying the comforts I have. I am one who is unconcerned about all that needs to be done and will take time to relax and enjoy myself.

This is so me this week. A houseful of family and my house is not even close to tidy! At least its family and they know us well enough to know that we feel there are things that are much more important than a tidy house. Family, Fun and Good Food!

Monday, December 28, 2009

Whole world in her hand


I am one who holds nature in my hand. I am one who is careful with the environment. I am one who feels energized by nature.

I am so looking forward to some time outdoors. I know compared to some places, it is not cold here, but if I get cold I stay cold for a long time! So I hope this week while I am off work, we can get some outdoor time in. Maybe Enchanted Rock State Park!

Sunday, December 27, 2009

Struggling on the Path

I am one who feels small. I am one in awe of the world. I am one who is struggling to continue on the way. I am one who is moving away from the frozen state I am in and toward the moving water.

I feel like I am moving ahead even though things are not moving as quickly as I wish. I am looking for ways to improve my energy levels and concentration on the task at hand.


Thursday, December 24, 2009

Transform


I am one who is bright and cheerful. I am one who is unusual and different. I am one who is attracted to bright colors. I am one who is transforming.

As we head into the holidays I look forward to the new year. I will be working on my intentions, looking for a single adjective that I will strive to maintain for the year. Sounds better than a resolution!

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Watch What I Eat


I am one who is aware of the danger of the wrong food. I am one who is looking to improve how and how much I eat. I am one who is a bomb ready to explode.

This card is a good reminder as I come into the holiday season that I really need to pay attention to what I eat. Continue to look for the hidden ingredients that can explode in my body and make me feel bad. I will be eating at family & friend's homes and need to remain vigilant if I don't want to get sick.

It is difficult when you are staying away from home and don't have control of a kitchen. I am taking plenty of food with me, and hope to not offend our hosts.

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Helping hand

I am one who thinks she is helpful. I am one who can't let others accomplish things unassisted. I am one who reaches out for those in need. I am one who is trying to balance my life while helping others.

Wow! I have pulled this card several times before and I never got those "I Am One who..." before. I just finished a session of tapping and my mind is really focused.

I do try to not be so helpful, but that is the child of an alcoholic in me. I see potential problems and need to head them off at the pass. I am aware of this and do try really hard to not be co-dependent about things. Although when I am stressed, it just happens. So I will try harder to let others realize their own potential and deal with their own mistakes.

Monday, December 21, 2009

Being Patient

I am one who is balancing work, home and health. I am one who knows there is energy out there, I just have to be patient for it to come my way.

I am trying to find the right balance between work, and getting ready for the holidays. After 8 months off, it is hard to get in the swing of being back at work. Although that will change again unless there is funding for my position.

Sunday, December 20, 2009

Mysteries of Life


I am one who is looking for the mysteries of life. I am one who is aware that the mysteries are innumerable. I am one who is looking for the the amazing in her life.

I am amazed at the intricacies of the human body. How is works and sometimes doesn't. How the doctors find those things that don't work and fix them or not. As I face the possibility of more surgery I need to look at what is important in my life: family; friends; spiritual health and my surroundings. What to eliminate, what to keep.

Saturday, December 19, 2009

Clear Path

I am one who will follow the path where it leads me, but I don't have the knowledge of the steps until I need to know them. I am one who will listen to what my spirit guides have to say as I choose the path to follow.

I feel that I am on the edge of finding the next step in my path. I have changed doctors and feel very comfortable with Dr. M. He is helping me with the next steps to a healthier me.

I have some major changes ahead of me, I just have to trust that the way will become clear when I arrive at the place to make decisions.

Thursday, December 17, 2009

Wise

I am one who is wise. I am one who is at one with the Universe. I am one who is nourished by the water and the earth.

I am heading to have a lumbar puncture today. I am not afraid, I am not stressed. I know the Universe will take care of me.

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Twisted Up

I am one who has worked hard to be flexible and is now uncomfortable with the position I am in. I am one who feels like she is always performing tasks that don't come naturally to me.

This is the first time I have pulled this card. I made it on the SoulCollage Escape I went to in November. That is the last time I didn't feel all twisted up.

It is the time of year, where due to procrastination, I am trying to fit in all I need to do in a very short amount of time. Still working on my ornaments, I have a lumbar puncture on Thursday, and I still need to do some Christmas shopping and shipping. If it weren't for the ornaments, I could ship, but I don't have enough done to do that! I also am having a bad headache week. I hope the LP takes care of it, because if it doesn't, that means there is something else wrong!

Monday, December 14, 2009

All Lined Up

I am one who thinks that things are easier when they are all lined up. I am one who loves to work with a sharp pencil. I am one looking for a way to organize my stuff that is easy and fun.

I really need to get over the easy part. It can be fun and hard. Just not sure how to figure out the fun part of organizing all my stuff. I don't want to lose the spontaneity of discovery when I an working on my art. And I also don't want to limit myself to only glass. But what to keep of the old mediums I used to create? Do I send them all to the thrift shop, sell them on Ebay, or give them to friends. I have a lot of money invested in my supplies and tools.

Sunday, December 13, 2009

Balancing

I am one who is trying to balance everything in my life. I am one who is at home in the desert. I am one who is contemplating my life. I am one who is looking for balance.

As I spent this morning looking for a full time permanent job, I realized I have no idea what direction my life will take. There are some constants: family friends and where I live. But not sure what life will throw at me career wise. Lots to contemplate!

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Together Forever

I am one who knows that my mate will protect me from the elements. I am one whose relationship with her mate is out there for all to see. I am one who does not hide when the going gets tough.

Next month we will celebrate our 31st anniversary. Not that long in comparison to some, but a lot longer than some others.

We have had our ups and downs, but we have faced everything together. I hope our relationship will be an example for our children. Of course they also have grandparents, aunts and uncles to look to for example as well.

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

Time Passages

I am one who is looking for time to accomplish everything. I am one who is on a deadline. I am one who is aware of time passing.

As the time approaches for a 24-48 hour forced bedridden time, I am freaking out at what needs to be accomplished before the deadline. And after the bed ridden part I might still be able to only lay around for several days recovering. Not the best time of year to do this, but it needs to be done this year.