I am one who protects myself from the night. I am who is standing on the edge of the land and sea. Who is aware that many have gone before me and I need to pay attention to what they have to say before they are gone.
I do feel right now that I am in protection mode. I just don't know if it is a good thing or just isolationism. Rarely do I want to leave my home unless I have to and I don't want to see but a few people. Part of it is not feeling well, but I am not sure that is all of it.
It appears that life has decided to come down heavily on me. We will spend next weekend with hubby's family celebrating his dad's 90th. We know this is the last time we will see him alive as he has lung cancer. All the elders in my family are going now. It is getting hard to deal with those losses.
I am one who is focused on the small bits. Who is hanging with my friends enjoying life.
As this is the 3rd time I have drawn this card in 2 weeks. I think it must have something to say to me that I just don't get. I have been looking at it as a focus card. Focusing on the details and not seeing the big picture or focusing on renewal. I will have to think about what this cared really has to say. I am sure it will come up until I get the message it wants me to have!
I am one who loves the sound of water. I am one who's soul is nourished when she is near water. Who dreams of living where she can hear the water always.
I am in a fragile spot today and I don't know why. But I am close to tears for no apparent reason and just feel like I want to spend the day alone and not have to deal with people. I am going to say it is the antibiotics and leave it at that. I take the last one this morning, so by tomorrow I will feel better.
I have a fountain given to me by my son and his girlfriend. I think I need to set it up today to have the peaceful sound of water to soothe me.
I am one who flits from flower to flower looking for nourishment. I am one who is looking for the best way to nourish my soul.
I continue to look for the best ways for me to grow spiritually. The religion of my youth was a great base to build on, but the organized part does not seem to fit me like it did when I was younger. My religion was a cloak to wear that protected me from harm, but didn't seem to keep me nourished. I am looking for the nourishment, not so much the protection.
I am one who has the knowledge of the world at her fingertips. I am one who has wisdom.
I am feeling old this week. Health issues are harder to resolve. I am tired and just wish I could figure out what is going on and how to heal myself!
