Thursday, August 25, 2011

Safe in My Cocoon

I am one who is protected by ancient energy. Who is feeling safe inside my space. I am one who is hoping the healing energies of the pyramid will sustain me through recovery.

Since I have been unable to drive I feel like I have been cocooning for a couple weeks. I am not sure form I will take when my chrysalis finally hatches. 

But the enforced time at home has let me spend time healing. I think that is the real reason for the no drive rule by doctors!

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

Faith is taking the first step even when you don't see the whole staircase. MLK

I am one who knows that I need to make the first step, even if all the rungs are not yet in place. I am one who is afraid where that first step may lead. I am one who knows that the Universe will support me on my journey up the ladder.

It is scary to take that first step into what at some point could be rung-less. I am focusing this week on getting through Thursday. I am unsure what if anything I will be able to do after the surgery. I am trying to be as organized as I can. I am trying to accomplish those things that are really difficult for others to do for me  and leave the things easy for others to accomplish.

I need to focus a bit more on the thoughts and fears that go with major surgery and less on the things to accomplish.
 

Sunday, August 7, 2011

Maze of My Life

I am one who is reaching for the bright center of my soul. Who is aware of the maze that will lead me there. Who is wishing it was easier, no wrong  or u-turns. I am one who feels lost and looking for the clear path to the bright center of myself.

I understand that I have to go through trials and tribulation to find the real me. But sometimes I feel like I have had enough and just want the path to be apparent.

Especially for the doctors. I am tired of being the puzzle for them to figure out. I just want to have an answer and a solution to my health issues!!!

Thursday, August 4, 2011

Serenity

I am one who is missing my week at the coast. I am one who is feeling the need to be in the ocean. Who is desperate for the oppressive heat to end.

There are 2 places I go to in my mind when I need break; the Oregon coast and Las Cruces, NM. 

It has been so hot here in Texas, that Oregon is calling to me. I will make due with a long weekend on the Gulf coast next month, but it will be hot and sunny, not cool and foggy. I really need some cool and foggy!

I would really love to have some shady water to go to right now! It would go a long way to soothing my soul.