Ignore the Chaos

I am one who seems unaware of the chaos around me. I am one who is enjoying the comforts I have. I am one who is unconcerned about all that needs to be done and will take time to relax and enjoy myself.

This is so me this week. A houseful of family and my house is not even close to tidy! At least its family and they know us well enough to know that we feel there are things that are much more important than a tidy house. Family, Fun and Good Food!

Whole world in her hand

I am one who holds nature in my hand. I am one who is careful with the environment. I am one who feels energized by nature.

I am so looking forward to some time outdoors. I know compared to some places, it is not cold here, but if I get cold I stay cold for a long time! So I hope this week while I am off work, we can get some outdoor time in. Maybe Enchanted Rock State Park!

Struggling on the Path

I am one who feels small. I am one in awe of the world. I am one who is struggling to continue on the way. I am one who is moving away from the frozen state I am in and toward the moving water.

I feel like I am moving ahead even though things are not moving as quickly as I wish. I am looking for ways to improve my energy levels and concentration on the task at hand.

Transform

I am one who is bright and cheerful. I am one who is unusual and different. I am one who is attracted to bright colors. I am one who is transforming.

As we head into the holidays I look forward to the new year. I will be working on my intentions, looking for a single adjective that I will strive to maintain for the year. Sounds better than a resolution!

Watch What I Eat

I am one who is aware of the danger of the wrong food. I am one who is looking to improve how and how much I eat. I am one who is a bomb ready to explode.

This card is a good reminder as I come into the holiday season that I really need to pay attention to what I eat. Continue to look for the hidden ingredients that can explode in my body and make me feel bad. I will be eating at family & friend's homes and need to remain vigilant if I don't want to get sick.

It is difficult when you are staying away from home and don't have control of a kitchen. I am taking plenty of food with me, and hope to not offend our hosts.

Helping hand

I am one who thinks she is helpful. I am one who can't let others accomplish things unassisted. I am one who reaches out for those in need. I am one who is trying to balance my life while helping others.

Wow! I have pulled this card several times before and I never got those "I Am One who..." before. I just finished a session of tapping and my mind is really focused.

I do try to not be so helpful, but that is the child of an alcoholic in me. I see potential problems and need to head them off at the pass. I am aware of this and do try really hard to not be co-dependent about things. Although when I am stressed, it just happens. So I will try harder to let others realize their own potential and deal with their own mistakes.

Being Patient

I am one who is balancing work, home and health. I am one who knows there is energy out there, I just have to be patient for it to come my way.

I am trying to find the right balance between work, and getting ready for the holidays. After 8 months off, it is hard to get in the swing of being back at work. Although that will change again unless there is funding for my position.

Mysteries of Life

I am one who is looking for the mysteries of life. I am one who is aware that the mysteries are innumerable. I am one who is looking for the the amazing in her life.

I am amazed at the intricacies of the human body. How is works and sometimes doesn't. How the doctors find those things that don't work and fix them or not. As I face the possibility of more surgery I need to look at what is important in my life: family; friends; spiritual health and my surroundings. What to eliminate, what to keep.

Clear Path

I am one who will follow the path where it leads me, but I don't have the knowledge of the steps until I need to know them. I am one who will listen to what my spirit guides have to say as I choose the path to follow.

I feel that I am on the edge of finding the next step in my path. I have changed doctors and feel very comfortable with Dr. M. He is helping me with the next steps to a healthier me.

I have some major changes ahead of me, I just have to trust that the way will become clear when I arrive at the place to make decisions.

Wise

I am one who is wise. I am one who is at one with the Universe. I am one who is nourished by the water and the earth.

I am heading to have a lumbar puncture today. I am not afraid, I am not stressed. I know the Universe will take care of me.

Twisted Up

I am one who has worked hard to be flexible and is now uncomfortable with the position I am in. I am one who feels like she is always performing tasks that don't come naturally to me.

This is the first time I have pulled this card. I made it on the SoulCollage Escape I went to in November. That is the last time I didn't feel all twisted up.

It is the time of year, where due to procrastination, I am trying to fit in all I need to do in a very short amount of time. Still working on my ornaments, I have a lumbar puncture on Thursday, and I still need to do some Christmas shopping and shipping. If it weren't for the ornaments, I could ship, but I don't have enough done to do that! I also am having a bad headache week. I hope the LP takes care of it, because if it doesn't, that means there is something else wrong!

All Lined Up

I am one who thinks that things are easier when they are all lined up. I am one who loves to work with a sharp pencil. I am one looking for a way to organize my stuff that is easy and fun.

I really need to get over the easy part. It can be fun and hard. Just not sure how to figure out the fun part of organizing all my stuff. I don't want to lose the spontaneity of discovery when I an working on my art. And I also don't want to limit myself to only glass. But what to keep of the old mediums I used to create? Do I send them all to the thrift shop, sell them on Ebay, or give them to friends. I have a lot of money invested in my supplies and tools.

Balancing

I am one who is trying to balance everything in my life. I am one who is at home in the desert. I am one who is contemplating my life. I am one who is looking for balance.

As I spent this morning looking for a full time permanent job, I realized I have no idea what direction my life will take. There are some constants: family friends and where I live. But not sure what life will throw at me career wise. Lots to contemplate!

Together Forever

I am one who knows that my mate will protect me from the elements. I am one whose relationship with her mate is out there for all to see. I am one who does not hide when the going gets tough.

Next month we will celebrate our 31st anniversary. Not that long in comparison to some, but a lot longer than some others.

We have had our ups and downs, but we have faced everything together. I hope our relationship will be an example for our children. Of course they also have grandparents, aunts and uncles to look to for example as well.

Time Passages

I am one who is looking for time to accomplish everything. I am one who is on a deadline. I am one who is aware of time passing.

As the time approaches for a 24-48 hour forced bedridden time, I am freaking out at what needs to be accomplished before the deadline. And after the bed ridden part I might still be able to only lay around for several days recovering. Not the best time of year to do this, but it needs to be done this year.

Unwinding

I am one who is searching for the right shade of color in my life. I am one who seems organized but is really not as tightly wound as I would like to be. I am one who tries to be organized but never completely accomplishes my goal.

I really need to figure out a way to organize my art supplies. It sounds like it should be easy, but things unravel here and there and it never gets tidy. It is frustrating to no end that I can't accomplish what seems to be a simple thing.

Spark of Creativity

I am one who is blooming with inner light. I am one who is fiery at the center. I am one who is burning off the old parts that are no longer useful. I am one with the spark of creativity.

This card is all about the bursting forth of new ideas and paths. I am moving toward an improved me everyday. My creativity has been sparked and I am enjoying being creative again.

Key to Joy

I am one who is aware that the women in my life are the key to finding my path. I am one who knows that there are many keys to life, but only one is going to work at this particular moment. I am one who wants to spend quality time with the women in my life.

I enjoy the time that I spend with my women friends. My new boss is a woman and that is something different for me. Luckily she is a woman of peace and justice, so we get along just fine. I need to find more ways to spend quality time with my friends, it is the key to my joy.

Spiritual Path

I am one who loves to walk on the beach. I am one who appears to be on the path alone. I am one who needs to widen her focus to include others on this path. I am one who is aware that her impression on the world is fleeting.

It is nice to see this card. I really need to shift my focus to include others who can help me on my path. I have been quite isolated in my quest to find my spiritual path. It has been my health that I use as an excuse. Too tired to go to the groups that help me on my path. Dealing with health issues and finding root causes for symptoms takes up a lot of my energy. I forget how invigorating it can be to spend time with others on the quest of their spiritual path.

Time to get started!

I am one who is aware of time passing. I a am one who is trying to fit in all the things she needs to do in a limited amount of time. I am one who needs to manage my time better. I am one who is looking for a way to organize my time.

I really do need to get my life organized. My house is a mess and I can't seem to make myself conquer the mess. It is all so overwhelming! The Universe (tut.com) told me to take baby steps, but I am still crawling toward getting started!

Peace

I am one who is most comfortable out doors near the water. I am one who feels she is watching her life fly by. I am one looking for ways to find peace and relaxation. I am one who is wistful over the time when I was young, fit and carefree.

As the year ends I am looking for ways to find that inner peace that used to be a big part of me. I keep searching for it in places, but I think I need to look more to the youthful, never grow up, part of me. I am struggling with job, health and financial stuff and how to function as the youthful person I feel inside instead of the old lady I seem to be moving into. It isn't about growing old, but how I do that gracefully.

I don't usually make New Year's resolutions, but I may work some intentions into my life the next month or so. Intentions sounds so much better. Like I will improve things instead of forbid myself things!

Finding Nourishment

I am one who is searching for the nourishment I need. I am one who seems to flit here and there never staying in one spot for long. I am one who is ready to move on to the next place of nourishment.

This weekend is our SoulCollage® Escape. A weekend of cardmaking, readings, communing with nature and labyrinth walking. No schedules, just flitting from one activity to the next. Sleeping and eating when I want! Sounds like heaven!

Winds of Change

I am one who is aware of the stages of a woman's life. I am one who is letting the winds of change blow over her. I am one who is gleaning more about myself and hoping for the winds of change to blow away the chaff.

I am afraid to say it definitely, but it appears that I may start working on Monday. It will be a possibly temporary part time job through the end of the year. I will learn more later today. It will be a job that will test my patience at time as it is for a church group that can be conservative in their views at times. But the work will be challenging and the person I would work for is really nice.

I will just continue to keep my mouth shut and learn new skills where I can. She understands that I will continue to look for a full time job. So I think my time will be flexible and I will learn a lot more about bookkeeping.

Watch your step

I am one who is walking toward freedom. I am one who is walking carefully to avoid pitfalls. I am one who knows that the path is safe if I pay attention to where I step.

I do feel that I am walking a perilous path. The path seems to run between doctors and their differing opinions. I will see one today to get more info if possible. Still waiting for one to call me back to schedule an appointment. I am really worried about my eyes and what is happening with them. How will I be able to walk the path without vision.

I am one who feels like she is together but different than the rest of the group. I am one who is focused on the differences between us. I am one who is looking for more focus.

I actually am feeling quite apart from everyone. I haven't been hanging out with anyone but Rod. I still meet one morning a week to do SoulCollage®, but everyone is really busy with no time to get together for fun. I really need to make an effort to socialize more. I am beginning to feel homebound.

Shifting Balance

I am one who is balancing my needs with those around me. I am one who is looking for the energy to make things happen. I am one who is unsure how I am keeping balanced with all the weight I feel on my shoulders.

My unemployment is organized. I have several other phone calls to make this am. I hate calling people I don't know on the phone! It would be so nice if all this stuff could be handled by email. But that could upset the balance of the known world!

My balance has shifted somewhat. The Vitamin D the Dr. gave me has cleared up my head and I am no longer concerned I have Alzheimer's. So things are looking up. As long as you don't see that huge rock hanging there in the balance. That could get scary!

Answered Prayers

I am one who is looking to the sages for guidance. I am one who knows that the next step on my path will become clear when it is time. I am one who has faith that I will know when to take the next step.

This card reminds me that my prayer in this whole job search thing is that I will only be offered the right job. Since I haven't been offered anything yet, I am taking it on faith that my prayers are being answered!

Life is all about the journey, not the destination. What have I learned about myself on the way? I am learning that I am great at procrastination and without structure my house/life goes to hell in a hand basket.

I am finding that I am isolating myself from the friends and things I love. I keep up with my SoulCollage® practices, but prefer to not participate much with the group. We have an Escape planned in 2 weeks, I hope I can reconnect there.

I was speaking with a friend who was struggling with the structure thing and she commented that a morning ritual gave her the structure she needs to keep her day on track. I really hope to find that ritual for myself. She and I have started tapping. It is really amazing how it works. You can see it at www.tapping.com. Enjoy!

Ancient Path

I am one who walks the ancient path. I am one who protects myself from the elements. I am one trying to decipher the ancient writings. I am one who is comfortable by the sea.

I loved staying across from the bay in San Diego. A beach walk would have been great, but no car to get there. I am always energized after having spent time by the sea. My readings during my stay there were very profound and put me on the path towards enlightenment. Today this path continues. I will continue to look at the ancient religions to find the parts that I feel are relevant to my spiritual path.

Aware but unconcerned

I am one who is living her life as if there are no dangers surrounding her. I am one who is comfortable in her space. I am one who relaxes with the knowledge that even though there are treacherous waters below, I am supported by a strong network of family and friends.

I realized that I do just blithely continue on, even though things are scary or dangerous. I am aware of that there are things that can harm or deter me, but I just continue on. I may be on the look out for things that could go wrong, but I don't let that stop me from my quest. Whatever that quest may be.

Pick the good stuff

I am one who is pruning away the parts that inhibit growth. I am one who is looking for things to spice up my life. I am one who is looking for the prime parts that are the best of me. I am one who is flitting around looking for nourishment.

I have a job interview today. I need to let go of the things that will inhibit me from getting the job; the self doubt, concern over the cold sore that popped up today and the worry about how I would fit in at a state agency. I can do what I need to be successful!

Wish me luck!

Listen!

I am one who is looking for peace and quiet. I am one who is trying to shush the voices telling me what to do. I am one who is listening to nature and hopes that she has some answers.

The weekend was great. Our campsite was on the water and I felt so relaxed and rejuvenated. I am trying harder to listen to what my body is telling me it needs. I have to organize myself to lose some weight and get more exercise. Let's hope I can get up early to walk when I can listen to nature!

Break Through

I am one who is locked into a pattern. I am one who has the key to unlock the chains, but all the keys are rusty. I am one who is looking for sunshine. I am one looking to break the chain keeping me in the dark isolated place i find myself in.

I really wish I could make myself do the things my brain knows are right. I have done it in the past, but the habits are rusty and I am not sure they will work anymore. I know in my head that the old patten isn't working, but I seemed locked into it and can't seem to break myself out. I am sure there is a breakthrough out there, I just wish it would come my way!

Outside Looking In

I am one who needs to find a way to help those in need. I am one who feels like she is on the outside looking in. I am one who feels like she is not participating in the world. I am one who feels like she is just a spectator.

It appears this week my soul needs to step outside itself and reach out to others. I have been thinking as my birthday comes up that I would like to have a party. I will incorporate donations to my favorite charity instead of gifts. Gifts to me would just give me more material things to find a place for and I am already struggling with that.

So I will talk to Rod and pick a date for a party and then have people make donations or assemble a Kit for CWS: http://www.churchworldservice.org/site/DocServer/KitGuide.pdf?docID=361.

Balance

I am one who is aware of the big gap between rich and poor. I am one who is trying to live more simply. I am one who is frustrated by people who are seemingly unaware of the needs of others and continue to spend way to much money on frivolous things. I am one who appalled by those who don't teach their children the value of money and to have concern for those less fortunate.

It appears that it is a soapbox day. I am appalled by some of the things I see happening in the world. The rich get richer and those of us unemployed/working stiffs are struggling more and more.

My unemployment runs out this week. I am eligible for an extension, but it is less money than I was getting. I can't find a job and there will be less money coming in.

I am still one of the lucky ones, I have a working husband, a home and great family & friends. I am not living in my car or on the streets. So even though I am frustrated by the inequality of it all, I consider myself lucky!

Spectator

I am the one who is aware that I am approaching a different phase of my life. I am the one who feels like a spectator of my life. I am the one who is looking for the balance in trying to be more spiritual, finding more joy, and to taking time to relax.

This reminds me to not be so cerebral about things. I need to be more active in my life improvement process. Participate more, research less!

Family

I am one who is surrounded by those I love. I am one who is aware of how fragile life is. I am one who realizes how closeness can seem smothering.

I miss my sons. Neither live in town and I don't get to see them much. They are busy with significant others, work and school. But I still miss them. I try to not be the smothering type of mom, but want to be more in touch with their daily lives.

Colorful Journey

I am one who is on a new journey. I am one who is using the rainbow in my life to help me on this journey.

I have spent a more productive week than I have for a while. I hope to continue on this path, using what I have learned about myself to help me continue.

Raven Medicine

I am one who loves to spend time with my friends. I am one who is more comfortable in nature. I am one who takes time to tend to my spirit.

It is interesting that the ravens came up for me today. After the Chakra Workshop on Saturday I have had more energy and clarity of purpose. One of things I found out about Raven Medicine is that it is: "the symbol of changes in consciousness, of levels of awareness and of perception." So perhaps I need to do more Chakra work!

Move Forward

I am one who is moving into a new phase of my life. I am one who needs to heed the caution sign. I am one who will cross that road when she comes to it.

Today I have pushed through the fatigue to accomplish things. I applied for 14 jobs, helped out a friend and will still have time for a nap. I feel like I have crossed into a new attitude and hope to keep moving forward.

Riding the wave

I am one who feels at home in the water. I am one who is enjoying myself even though there is a tidal wave coming. I am one who is aware of the danger, but willing to go along for the ride.

I just found out that I can have surgery to take care of a 20 year old syndrome. I know there are dangers with the surgery, but I look forward to be able to take less medication, and the possibility that I will also have another syndrome disappear. Whoo! Hoo! Ride the wave!

Riches or Gold

I am one who is receiving riches from the Universe. I am one who is waiting for a shower of gold. I am one who seems protected from those showers. I am one who is wishing the money needed will just fall from the sky!

I know that I have received many things bountiful from the Universe. Right now I need the gold, not the riches. We have a major bill coming up due to city code. I am still unemployed and unless I get an extension, the unemployment runs out soon. So I am trying very hard to focus on the riches, not the gold!

Wasting Energy

I am one who is looking for energy. I am one who like I need to find alternatives for energy. I am one who feels that my energy is wasted. I am one who is not using my energy efficiently.

I spend so much of my energy looking for work that I rarely have enough to accomplish things around the house. Without a routine I am lost. I know that I could set a routine, but every time I attempt to, things are sent my way to upset the routine! Are they being sent to test my resolve for routine or are they being sent to tell me to live without a routine?

Frozen

I am one who is diving into untested waters. I am one who is taking a leap of faith. I am one who is willing to move towards the unknown. I am one who is stuck mid-dive, unable to move, frozen with fear of the unknown.

I am struggling with how to proceed with my life. Do I find a way to dive right into something or do I be cautious and plan my entry into something new. At the moment I am stuck in mid-air. Unable to move ahead or back up.

Taking stock

I am one who is fragile, yet strong. I am one with a great capacity for what life has to offer. I am one who is ready for what the Universe has in store for me during this time of harvest.

I am excited about the possibilities open to me at this time of harvest and thanksgiving. It is time to take stock of my abilities and how to best use them. I expect there will be a few chips and cracks before I am through, but that really just adds character.

Raining color

I am one who is relaxed and enjoying life. I am on who is surrounded by color. I am one who is artistic and is always trying to find ways to incorporate more color into my life.

I have been in an artistic slump. But was given positive feedback last night on a project for a workshop I am helping to organize. It felt good and makes me want to be creative. Hopefully I will have time next week when we get home from the Labor Day wknd.

Guardian Angel

I am one who is juggling the important things in my life. I a one who is looking to the heavans for answers. I am hone who feels that I have a guardian angel to protect me.

Even with everything that is happening in my life that is not wonderful, I still feel that I have a wonderful life. My family is great and I have enough money to get by one. Or at least enough credit to get me over the humps. I am also optimistic that things will work out for the best, no matter if I have to go through hell to get there!

Crossroads of Life

I am one who is at a crossroad. I am one who is deciding which way to take my knowledge. I am one who is unsure where I am heading, but is glad to be on my way.

I do feel a bit directionless. Life seems like it should be straight forward. but there are these crossroads, bends and dead ends along the way. How to navigate them with out causing an accident or getting mired in a rut? I guess that is what life is really about. Navigating without falling in a rut or crashing! Whoo Hoo! I found the meaning of life!

Finding Time

I am one who appears to have all the time in the world. I am one who is worried about the time. I am one who sees that there are different times for everyone.

Although I am not working right now, I don't seem to have time to do what I want because I am low on energy and cash! I may have solved the energy thing by upping the pressure on my CPAP. I slept much more restfully last night. I may actually get some things accomplished today!

Girls just want to have fun!

I am one who is playful and full of life. I am one who is ready to kiss unemployment goodbye! I am one is trying to have a joyful attitude. I am one who loves to have fun!

I pulled this card quickly this morning before a job interview. I put it in my briefcase to take along to remind me to not take things too seriously. I am waiting to hear on a second interview. I hope it happens because I think the job would bring out this girl in me. And I really like her!

No Boundaries!

I am one who is trying to keep things in order while at the same time thinking outside the box. I am one who is aware that not everything in my life will fit together in an orderly fashion. I am one who knows that my options are without bounds except for the ones I place on myself.

I have a job interview on Friday. I called the number and they set the interview, no questions asked. The job is a personal assistant to the owner of a real estate school. Sounds like it could be fun and different. Slightly outside my box, but not the same old, same old. Now, what to wear?